As I spin, the world spins with me, and the problems I was facing are all just a blur. But it is not just an escape. No. For if I were to spin to get away, all I would find is a dizzy head and nausea on the other side. But this spinning, this spinning, is part of a dance. A dance with a King who has attendants looking after the problems I have left behind, before I was spinning. He asked me to dance, and I said yes. So here I am dancing with my King outside of time and space.
It's simple really. I dance because I am His and He asked me to.
The first time He asked, I withheld. I told Him I didn't know how. I told Him that it would bother those around me. And so I stood still, fighting everything within me that had the beat of the song pulsing through it.
The next time He asked me, I did what I could to say yes. And so we swayed. That awkward, middle-school dance sway because it was simple. The sway became a rock. Like a little girl dancing with her Dad.
One day, I saw us dancing and it was beyond just the sway. Or the rock. And I said, "Oh. I want to dance SO BAD." And He said, "Then dance." In the burst of the moment, I released all inhibitions that had held me back and found myself in the comfort of what I call some fast-footed dancing. Like to that of a real good bluegrass tune. Oddly, I found this mixture to be the next comfort zone for me, as I had danced before people like that before. But I also found it the point of no return - the brink of all freedom because if I could release like THAT in the midst of people singing their hymns and spiritual songs, there was no going back. And He knew it too.
As time passed, I didn't want to just dance crazy before Him. I wanted to dance with Him. I wanted to dance beautifully. I wanted to grow in my ability to dance. So.. in the times when nobody else was around, I began to change my dance. Not confident in my ability to do anything that wasn't merely crazy. I moved back to the sway in church at times and found the rhythm again. I would go to the back during worship and in brave moments release this new form of dance that had to come out. The more I did; the more I found that my first fear of not knowing how to dance was insignificant to a King who has been dancing from the beginning of time and will dance through the end. I found that He is the best lead any girl could ever hope for.