I love that in all of the research and scientific studies that take place around the world, the most complex phenomenon in the world is human beings. The science behind our anatomy has been developing for thousands of years. We have it broken down to the smallest of particles and then have broken those down, too. Yet, we still do not know why humans have life. We don’t know how they get the life in or out. We don’t know how some people survive, objectively speaking, in the most arduous of circumstances. What I love the most in all of this is that our intricate and complex and discoverable yet still unknown being makes perfect sense. The reason why we haven’t come to an end of ourselves; the reason why we began searching ourselves out; the reason human life is valued; the reason human life is emotional; the reason humans have language and memory; the reason we want to know and be known, love and be loved, understand and be understood. All very simply put is because of this – we were made in the image of God. It’s almost not surprising that so many scientists claim not to know God but spend everyday searching Him out.
In our zealous desire to be loved, known, and understood, even within the church, we create rationale for everything and explain ourselves away. In our fear of not being loved if we differ from others, we create rationale to explain it. In places where evil abounds, we create more rationale for ourselves as to why we are a certain way, because we shamefully fear being labeled “evil” ourselves for the evil that inflicts us; therefore, we are doubly inflicted. In doubt, we call evil good or acceptable because we do not have a rational solution to such a problem and we also know we cannot call the person evil. So we create mental illnesses, approve poor lifestyles (in a “justified” manner), fill our bodies with synthetic poison we call drugs or prescriptions that fix the symptoms we see yet leave a person empty, we invent politics, cultures, societies, classes – all so that we can explain why evil exists in the world and why some things result the way that they do. We try to rationalize the world away so that it may be containable and we can believe in the phantom reality all because in that we believe we are now understood. When the true reality is that we feel more misunderstood, misguided, and lost with a gaping hole of unknown inside of us so powerful and monumental, we are scared to look in fear of what we may find, or worse, what we won’t find.
But if we take up our courage and dare to look at that hole within ourselves, we shall find what we have always longed for. In this hole, is darkness and lack. We can never rationalize ourselves into or out of it. No science can fill it. There is but one answer:
“In him was life, and the life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it.”
~ John 1:4-5
There is nothing left to rationalize because it wasn't ever a rational problem to begin with. There is nothing left to rationalize because the darkness and dull colors were never who we were to begin with. Only in our rationalizing did we own them. We were trying to be understood for who we are not, so we could never have what each of us really desired – to be understood for who we are. To be known for who we are. To be loved for who we are.
In Western “Sunday school” classes, the answer was always, “Jesus,” and it was right. As we grew older and “graduated,” we decided that rationale was the answer filled with limitless possibilities that could be found or invented as was necessary to attend to that issue at that time. The question is, why did our answer being “Jesus” only apply to us as children and not our lives when He is life? HE is the answer we have been searching for and His Gospel is the way we climb out of our rationalized pits to be whole – fully ourselves, fully known, fully understood, perfectly loved.